I wouldn’t be Isinbaeva if quit!18.08.2009Double Olympic champion and world record holder in the women’s pole vault, Yelena Isinbaeva, despite her failure in Berlin, found the strength to describe how she feels.
- Lena, can you recollect your feelings now, reconstruct the event?- When I was lying for a long time, everything was fine. I mentally pictured how I would jump, how all would be normal. I got up and entered at 4 m 75 cm, and during my run, I hooked my left foot on my right as if to braid them, and I stumbled. I was simply surprised by this, because it had never happened to me. As if someone had specifically sat and bound my legs together. But there wasn’t time to stop and do my takeoff run over. Consequently, I blew off one attempt. Then I confidently decided to pass the second and third attempts from 4.75 to 4.80, which is commonplace for me. I had done this in Athens and on many occasions. I’ve easily jumped 4 80. This is an elementary height for me. Absolutely nothing to it. And again I didn’t make it – a little something with my left hand didn’t come out right.
- Like you were bewitched. - Really, to me something otherworldly happened. I cannot describe it.
- And then your last hope was ruined. - Yes. On my third attempt. I had a feeling about how I’d jump. I know myself, I know these feelings before a third attempt, when everything is concentrated inside. And when the bar fell, I thought: “My God, this can’t be. This isn’t me. I’m not here.” It seemed to me that I’d stand up, and it would turn out that I was mistaken, that I’d have one more attempt left, that I’d counted them wrong. But I stood up and realized that the “limit” had been reached.
- In those seconds, probably it was very frightening to sense the reality? - Very frightening. I both understood and didn’t understand what had happened.
- What’s in your soul now? - In my soul? It’s empty. And in my head, so far, nothing fits. How is it that in 27 years, after all the victories, all the records, I have done nothing for the world championships in Berlin? What’s more, I was fully focused on victory, and believed in my victory, because today everything was prepared in order to win. And not simply to win, but with a high result.
- What prevented it? - At this moment I can’t analyze what went wrong. I have no answer for this question. In warm-ups I cleared the height of 4 70 without any problems.
- Maybe an emotional lapse? - My whole point is that I haven’t had any psychological or emotional problems, or technical ones either. My injury is healed and my leg doesn’t bother me. Everything is excellent, there is nothing interfering. Apparently such is fate.
- Lena, even computers have failures, and you’re not made of iron. - Everyone has now seen that I’m not a mechanical clockwork bear. It was time to lose. When you’re first all the time, and always breaking records, perhaps one begins to relax inside, to think it will go on that way, and you start to depend on it. Today I was hit on the head and it was made clear that you need to fully concentrate on the sport, not being distracted by anything else.
- And by what have you been distracted? - You must understand! I’m a young girl. I’m not yet married, and naturally, I want a personal life, something else, a full life! Now I understand that I must devote my remaining four years to pole vaulting. I must be totally focused; the sport must occupy the first place in my life. Indeed, if you betray the sport, it will not forgive you.
- Maybe you burnt out while waiting for over an hour and a half? - It’s definitely hard to lie down and wait; the other girls have already started to compete, and entered into this state. But I have to get myself started differently. This is hard. But over the past four years, I’ve gotten used to waiting.
- And was it a mistake to pass 4.65? - No. Tactically I did everything right. I see no sense in trying to compete with the girls at that height. It would be humiliation to jump below my level. And passing two attempts from 4.75 to 4.80 was justified. For me it’s better to lose with a “baranka” (zero), than to win a medal jumping 4.65.
- By doing so, thus Rogowska improved? - She didn’t improve. Her personal best is 4 m 86 cm. Today she was simply lucky that I lost.
- Perhaps it would have been worthwhile to skip the season? - Vitaly Afanasevich and I thought about it, but I have some new sponsors, so it’s the first year I’ve worked with them. They greatly believe in me, and I greatly believe in them.
- But if you had not had sponsorship obligations? - No, not the World Championships. Possibly other competitions.
- Every defeat is an opportunity to change oneself. - Certainly my rise began after the very embarrassing loss to Svetlana Feofanova in the 2003 World Championships in Paris. After such an awful defeat today, I’ll analyze everything; reexamine my entire life for the remaining 3-4 years. I’ll draw the correct conclusions.
- Will you change your tactics after this defeat? - No, I’ll press my rivals as usual.
- And no thoughts of quitting have flickered through your mind?- I wouldn’t be Isinbaeva if I quit.
Valentina Krasnykh exclusively for Rusathletics.com